Thursday, August 20, 2009

swelling and headache's gotten worse. i feel sick trying to move around so i'm more or less just lying on my bed or in a half-dead slump on the couch in the living room.
not much studying going on. but i'm not even sure whether i'll be well enough to take the exam on saturday without passing out in the exam hall.
feel bad making my friends worry but seriously, i have no mood for any sort of conversation at the mo. erratic hours are back but it just can't be helped.
trying to be positive, more optimistic about post-surgery but its just so hard when nothing's going right. i feel helpless, even more so when i can't quite keep my emotions in check.
on a lighter note, i want to watch jennifer's body. but haven't found anyone who would want to watch it with me. highly doubt michelle's interested especially after i went high and said 'its got girl-on-girl action!'. noooooope, not happening for the time being. can't believe i have to wait til end of october though.

what hurts the most
is that i know
how much you care.
but its not enough
to have a happy ending.

what we could have been, 12:32 am.